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Why Journalism isn’t for me

Let me start by saying that I took a much longer break from writing than I had originally intended.

I needed the space and time to figure out how to write again because somewhere in the Journalism program, I lost my voice. I was so busy trying to “get it right” and learn the rules that I forgot the most important thing, I love writing.

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Jmaxwell Update

Wow, it’s been a long time since I wrote a blog post.

During the last few weeks of this semester I got so busy and overloaded with assignments and work.

But I’m back!

I am working on some new posts that will start up tomorrow and I am so excited to start writing again!

So keep your eye out for more blog posts from me!

Cheers,

JMaxwell

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Two of my world’s combining

When I was deciding what I wanted to do as my career, I came up with two things that I wanted equally.

Cooking and writing.

Two of my favorite things in the world, I couldn’t just choose one.

Now those two choices are combing and I couldn’t be happier.

I attended George Brown College and graduated from Culinary Management.

I have met my favorite chef, Michael Smith.

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I am almost finished my Journalism diploma at Durham College as well.

I have met my favorite journalist too, Peter Mansbridge.

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Finding a way to combine both of my dream careers was easier than I ever imagined though it takes a lot of careful planning and hard work.

I look forward to growing in my career and inspire others like me to reach out and follow their dreams.

Cheers,

JMaxwell

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Mommy Musing: Sorry (But I’m busy!)

I’m sorry to all my friends that I no longer talk to or talk to so infrequently that I couldn’t think of one thing going on in your life.

I am deeply sorry that even if we do talk on a semi-frequent basis that I still forget and don’t remember special days, events, plans.

The thing I am most sorry about is that amount of times I have to say no to you.

I know that a lot of you are getting tired of hearing/reading that I am busy but unfortunately it is true.

My life as a parent/adult is spend 80% on the go and 20% trying to recover.

Although I am only twenty-three years old, I have a lot going on all at once and it has diminished my social life. Though I love my life, it does get frustrating that I can’t see you and that you feel neglected.

The main reason that I can no longer see you as often as I like is because of my rambunctious three-year-old (almost four!) He is constantly on the go, he comes first and he is not afraid to remind me.

A little insider tip to those of my kid-less friends,  kids rarely listen to their parents as well as they listen to others that are not related to them.

So even though on the rare occasion you see my boy act like an angel and entertain himself, it doesn’t happen quite like that when it’s just us.

It’s more like:

Jakob: “I want playdough, it’s my favorite.”

Me: “Okay, let’s play with playdough”  *continues to take out all the playdough*

Jakob: “I don’t like playdough anymore, I want puzzles.”  *Dumps out puzzles on floor*

Then continue this on repeat for the rest of the day with me following him around and ‘helping’ him clean up.

Now don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t change this for the world. I would rather be in a completely messy house with my toddler, laughing and making memories than be anywhere else in this world but I still miss you dear friend.

I know that you don’t understand this or maybe you do but are frustrated, I just can’t go out when I please.

It’s not as simple as “just get a babysitter.”   I can’t just pick a name out of the phone book and they come, (well I’m sure I could, but I would never do that.)

My son needs to be safe, well taken care of and I need someone I trust.  If my regular babysitter isn’t available, I’m not going anywhere unfortunately.

Timing, sometimes you just have terrible timing and that isn’t your fault at all.  It’s just the way the world works.

I need at least two days advanced notice to get things in order for a day out without my kid. There is a lot of preparation I need to go through in order to get out of the house. So when you call and say “Hey, want to do [insert outing here] at 6pm.”  Please don’t get mad when I politely decline because I just can’t swing it.

In the event we do plan something, I may need to cancel.  It could be for a million reasons but to name a few (yes, these have all happened.) Jakob is sick, I am sick, babysitter cancelled last-minute, I lost my shoes, my wallet ‘mysteriously’ ended up in the toilet, my debt card is ‘somehow’ broken in half or any other variation of chaos that erupts 2 minutes before I have to leave to meet you.

And trust me, I don’t take cancelling plans lightly, in the event one of the above happens, you can find me hiding in the bathroom crying because I am so frustrated but at the end of the day, he is my baby boy and I can’t do anything but love him to pieces.

I want to see you. I really do but between Jakob’s outings, programs, his school, my school, work, family time, etc. It can be too chaotic to schedule anything else in.

When all is said and done, I am so sorry for saying no to you even when nothing is going on.  Because when nothing is going on, I just want to sit still, relax and forget about the million things I will need to do tomorrow.

So I ask you to understand why I don’t see you much and know that I love you dearly.  Maybe I will get this time management down or find a way to see you more in the future but for now, things are in the air.

Some times you will call, text, Facebook whatever means of communication you attempt to contact me on and I won’t answer some times for days.  Just know that it’s not because I don’t want to talk to you.  It’s because I’m just too busy. I probably have a sick baby, or I am busy with my family or, the more likely is that I just need a break from technology.

Just know that when you decide to have kids, I will return the favor.

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Cheers,

JMaxwell

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Mommy Musing: Starting Kindergarten

My little tiny three-year-old started junior kindergarten today.

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My little guy is turning Four at the end of September but he still seems so young.

He is smart, he is ready for school but just the thought of it brings tears to my eyes.

He can recite his ABC’s, count to twenty, carry out a full conversation using big words in proper tense, work a computer, dress himself, do simple addition/subtraction, and so much more.

He is ready for school, but I’m not.

We went back to school shopping over the weekend and when we got home, I was unpacking the bags, tears slipping from my eyes looking at his indoor/outdoor shoes. I was thinking to myself, “Get it together, he will be fine.”

This is when I realized that it’s not about that.  It’s not about whether he will make friends, like his teacher, do well in school.  I know my kid, he will do just fine.  The problem is that I don’t want to let go.

I want him to be my little boy and spent all my free time with him. I want to explore all the world’s possibilities with him.

I realize now that his school stuff has been purchased, his bag packed and  I have sent him off to school, that I have done everything in my power to prepare him for this day.  That is why he ran to school, happy, barely looking back to say goodbye, too excited to meet new friends and have fun.  We have prepared him perfectly but what we forgot to do, is prepare ourselves.

My boyfriend and I dropped Jakob off at school and slowly made our way home, I don’t have to work today and college doesn’t start until tomorrow, we are free for the rest of the day.  We walk through our silent house wondering what we should do.  I clean up the floor and go to mention something to Jakob but he isn’t there. A slight panic ensues, that panic that says “Where is my child.” and then I remember, he’s at school.

I know this will pass, I will get used to it and soon I will be planning what I will do with my “free” time while he is at school but right now, I am counting down the minutes until we can go and pick him up.

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Cheers,

JMaxwell

 

 

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My top 3 passions

Writing:

Writing has always been a love of mine. I have boxes and boxes of old notebooks where I detailed every thought, emotion and experience within.  I wrote freestyle, poetry, songs and letters. I wrote with no rules, restriction or fear of it being read. I wrote for me. It was an outlet to help me get through things or express an emotion that I had a hard time doing in day-to-day life.

As I got older, I continued to do all of the above when it came to writing but I started realizing that I also want to write for a career. I found that I loved writing short stories, articles, essays and more detailed research paper.

Something about conveying thoughts on a page is an amazing feeling and when it all comes together at the end. Ahh, how wonderful.

Cooking:

I have always enjoyed working with food and it is something that started very early on.  My dad always retells a story from when I was young. I “cooked” him soup which I had made out of tap water, a whole onion, a whole carrot, rocks and other assorted whole vegetables.

My dad was a great sport when I made these creations and he always tasted them and told me how good they were. As I grew older, my mom and dad taught me how to cook at a young age and I fell in love.

It was and still is amazing how you can take very different ingredients and create one amazingly tasty dish.  I love to see the smiles on people’s faces when they taste food that I have created.  It is very satisfying to create recipes and cook them to perfection as it takes a long time to make something delicious.

Inspiring:

This one is something that I didn’t get into until I was in my late teens. I have always enjoyed listening to inspiring talks that get you motivated about life but it wasn’t until I was about 17 that I discovered that I wanted to inspire people.  Now I don’t go out and perform huge talks but I do it on a small-scale.  Whether it be smiling at someone to help brighten their day, helping someone with a task or giving advice about something that is bothering someone.

Small scale inspiration to those who are close to me or are within my proximity.

I enjoy this because I love to spread happiness and if I can just make 1 persons day, every day, I will be happy.

Those are my top three passions in life so far, I assume as the years go by, I will gain more.

 

Cheers,

JMaxwell

 

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Things I do instead of sleeping

Let’s talk about sleeping. Well not quite, more about not sleeping, at all.

I sleep about 4 hours a night and not because I have to.  My little guy sleeps from 7:30 P.M.  to 8:00 A.M. every night and rarely wakes up throughout the night. I am also on summer break from college so I have nothing to wake up to do other than be with my family, do household chores and shop for food, etc.

I feel so tired during the day that I am practically passing out but as soon as I put my son down to sleep, BOOM! Wide awake.

Now without further ado, here is the list of things I end up doing at night when I should be sleeping.

Netflix: Now I use Netflix during the day but at night, I re-watch movies, shows, etc hoping to just hear familiar things and drift off to sleep on the couch without worry of missing something.

Reading: This is a huge problem of mine, I have ended up pulling all nighters because I picked up a new book and literally read all night and into the early morning.

Cleaning: I get my best cleaning done when I can’t sleep.  The kitchen becomes spotless and reorganized, all the laundry gets done and folded, stuff gets donated.  Seriously, I think my boyfriend loves it when I get on a cleaning kick.

YouTube: I catch up with my favorite YouTubers, find new DIY projects, listen to new music until I can no longer keep my eyes open which usually ends with me sleeping on the couch with my Macbook on my lap.

Blog: Yup, this is a big one. Night time is when I sit down and write out new concepts, new blog ideas and respond to emails related to this blog. Seriously, if I’ve ever responded to your email, you would see that it was probably between 1:00 A.M. and 4:00 A.M.

Nothing at all: Seriously, sometimes I am so physically tired but my brain is awake so I just stare at the wall, ceiling, etc. I just lay there begging for sleep as the hours tick by.

This isn’t all of them but you get the idea.  I do everything except sleep at night and it turns into a vicious cycle.

Cheers,

JMaxwell