Brief no-spoiler overview of Chapters 29-30:
It’s the day of the final initiation day and Tris is so nervous.
Tris sees the new Dauntless initiates.
She eats lunch in the dorm.
She thinks about her fear landscape.
The initiates go through one by one, Tris is close to last.
Tris is next.
Tris faces her fear landscape and struggles a bit.
A new fear throws her off.
The last fear, Tris finds a new way to face it.
**SPOILER ALERT AHEAD: IN DETAIL DISCUSSION OF CH 29-30**
Tris thinks about Abnegation initiation and how calm it is.
Dauntless is chaos with the new initiates.
She grabs her lunch and goes to the quiet dormitory.
Tris is trying to figure out how to warn her former faction of the impending war.
She eats robotically thinking about how she will be an official Dauntless soon.
The fear landscape final test has begun.
Tris hears cheering, she notes that the initiates can’t see the fears, just the leaders and the person experiencing them.
There are no seats left and Uriah calls to her, “You can sit on my lap, if ya want.” (Roth. Pg. 381.)
Tris responds, “Tempting, it’s fine. I like to stand.” (Roth. Pg. 381.)
Tris will go last since she ranked first. She will watch everyone go first.
She hears her name and Eric says, “Ready?” (Roth. Pg. 383.)
Favorite quotes from chapter twenty-nine:
Tris thinking about the factions, “I eat like a robot, rotating from chicken to peas to bread and back again. It doesn’t matter what faction I really belong in. In two hours I will walk to the fear landscape room with the other initiates, go through my fear landscape, and become Dauntless. It’s too late to turn back.” (Roth. Pg. 379.)
The simulation begins.
Tris realizes that each fear symbolizes something.
She has a game plan, thanks to Tobias.
The first fear is her original crows attacking her.
She thinks this is about control. She wants to have a gun, she is searching the ground, she wants to show she is powerful.
She finds the gun and shoots the bird continuing to shoot until the fear ends.
Next up is the tank of water. She believes that this is about weakness.
So she convinces herself she is strong enough to break the glass.
It doesn’t work, she panics for a second.
She chants in her head, “The glass is ice, the glass is ice, the glass is…” (Roth. Pg. 386.)
It breaks and the fear ends.
The new fear is drowning in the sea. She can’t control it, that’s her fear.
She throws herself at the rocks, she lands and runs before a wave gets her. The fear ends abruptly.
The next fear is being burned at the stake. She is tied to the wood and Peter shows up with some initiates. He lights it on fire.
The conversation with Peter goes like this,
Peter: “Smell that, Stiff? That’s the smell of your burning flesh.”
Tris: “Know what I smell?…I smell rain.” (Roth. Pg. 389.)
Thunder rolls and rain falls. She smiles and the fear ends.
The next fear is of Peter, Al and Drew kidnapping her but in the landscape, the people are faceless.
She chants that this is just a simulation and slides the mirror and grabs a weapon. She aims the gun and fires at the faceless men.
There is screeching on glass and it shatters, she doesn’t have enough bullets and zombie like humans come after her.
She decides to calm herself instead and the fear ends quickly.
The next fear is Tobias.
Tobias kisses her and slowly takes off her jacket.
She realizes her fear is of being with him.
She thinks: “This is what I can’t cope with? This is the fear I have no solutions for-a boy I like who wants to…have sex with me?” (Roth. Pg. 393.)
She takes control of the situation by saying, “I am not going to sleep with you in a hallucination okay?” (Roth. Pg. 394.)
She pushes him into the bedpost and kisses him. The fear ends.
The next fear starts, her family appears.
A woman who sounds like Jeanine tells her to shoot them while pressing a gun to Tris’ forehead.
Tris notes her worst fear, “My family will die and I will be responsible.” (Roth. Pg. 395.)
Her family tells her to do it selflessly.
She lifts her gun, she tries to convince herself to do it.
She thinks of what Tobias said, “Selflessness and bravery aren’t that different.” (Roth. 395.)
She drops her gun and faces the barrel, “Shoot me instead.” (Roth. Pg. 396.)
Favorite Quote from chapter thirty:
When Tris realizes her new fear is Four, “My fear is being with him. I have been wary of affection all my life, but I didn’t know how deep the wariness went.” (Roth. Pg.393.)
Thoughts on Chapter 29-30:
These chapters were short and suspenseful.
I like the fact that she is so nervous but knows there is nothing she can do about it.
Then the fear landscape is insane, I laughed out loud at the new fear of Four.
All the leaders got to see that!
I can’t wait to read on. To see if she made it or not.