Another year has gone by and my birthday is here again.
Today, I turned 23!
It feels like every year goes by faster than the last and it reminds me not to procrastinate on things I want to do in my life.
I am very much the type of person that will do everything to help other people out, I will make sure they have everything they need and often forget about myself but as the years go by, I have learned the importance of caring for myself. This was a tough lesson, but it has helped me to be the happy person that I am today.
I can honestly say that I am happy with how my life is right now. Sure, I have dreams and goals that I haven’t attained yet but I will when the time is right.
Right now, I have a loving family, a bunch of great friends and I do the things that I love on a daily basis.
I used to dread my birthday every year, I felt that I was getting old too fast, that nothing had changed so how could a year have gone by.
This year, I was actually looking forward to it. Not for the gifts or the day being all about me, I’ve never been that person, even as a small child but because I understand why birthdays are a cause for celebration now.
A big thing that changed is my attitude towards life. I decided last year that I would stop living such a fast life, I seemed to always be on the go. I needed to do everything right away, I needed to be doing a million things at once because there is no time to sit idle.
I’ve realized that doing this burnt me out and made me less appreciative of the things I was accomplishing during that time period.
Last year, I was going to George Brown College. Travelling to the city every day making most of my school days 10 hours long, then homework, cleaning, preparing for the next day while trying to spend time with my then two-year-old. I could handle all this for about 3 weeks straight and then I’d collapse.
I was always sick, tired, grouchy and I was suffering emotionally. I didn’t want to be away from my little family, I didn’t want to be working myself into the ground for little payout. I loved what I was doing but I wasn’t 100% invested in it so it took its toll on me.
This past year, (March, 2013.) I decided that it was time for me to become a priority in my own life. I started thinking about the things that I wanted while of course still caring for others. That’s a part of me that will never go away.
I decided Journalism was a good start and I applied for it in my own town so the travel time was greatly reduced. I decided that though I loved culinary, I also loved writing and I would never be 100% happy if I didn’t explore all my possibilities.
I started working out and eating healthy, (well most of the time.)
I spent more time with my loved ones and took personal time when I needed to refresh, recharge and reflect on my life and where I wanted to go looking forward.
My biggest goal is to be happy. I want a lot of things in life, a permanent house, a nice car, nice clothing, etc.
All those come secondary to my needs in life and are not absolute requirements. I consider them to be my “it would be nice” goal list.
My needs are for my family and I to be well fed, sheltered and happy. I want us all to be doing the things we love with people we love and to be the best people we can be.
This year, on my birthday, I can honestly say that we are happy, we are together, we are safe and that’s the best birthday present I could ask for.
Now, I have started to ramble so I will leave you with these pictures of the people who keep me moving forward with my life. They keep me grounded and remind me of who I am.